Events that occured over the past few months had resulted in me being in a dilemma over whether I should go back to Malaysia or not during summer hols. My Mum remarried, there were hiccups in my studies, and other stuff as well stirred me abit. well who the hell doesn't want to go back and meet up with their families rite. but I don't feel like it.
Just thought that I might wanna have some change in life. I just couldn't find that strength now to endure the year passing and the years to come. not that I've given up on life, it's just that sometimes I think I just don't have the 'push' anymore. I stooped to a very lowly level, one that is purely 'stagnant'. and it's just normal I don't get anything out of being this way.
Maybe I'm just a coward. maybe there's something else that I need. and maybe things will get better. I just don't know how yet. I hope it will. :)
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